Ramblings

Well I am finally starting this long awatied blog on my behalf. I have needed a way to put my thoughts in words for awhile now. Most days I don't think of anything except the next couple of months and what is ahead of me. If you would have asked me 7 weeks ago how I would handle something like this, I couldn't have told you exactly how I would be. I believe we doubt so much of what we are capable of in circumstances like this and others. Be it a dealth, cancer, job loss, just whatever it is, we have an idea of how we would handle the situation, but do we know really for sure until we are in the fire? But through this I have learned that I can't handle it at all with out my Christ. HIS love has shown up for me and my family in ways in which it is hard to describe. Most days I am calm, this doesn't mean I don't think constanly about my little Stephen. Everything I look at reminds me of what is to come and what is to be missed. Christ though has been the one constant throughout this. He has giving me a peace that I can't explain at all. Don't get me wrong, I have my pissed off days and stay in the bed all day days. But there is always the next day that HE takes me to. Thoughs of you who are in the fire right now, I pray that you will find His peace and may it surround you in your upcoming days. Thanks for listening to my thoughts. Check back soon.