Feeling Kinda Down

Today I just woke up with this sad feeling. Not ready to start the day, but the need to put my middle child on the bus ushered be out of the bed. Just feeling sad, thinking about how the future family pictures will not have Stephen in them. This is the hardest part with this all. I daily think of things that will not be with him. There are things that I never paid much attention to with my other 3 sons, they just didn't seem very relevant then. I have taken so much for granted, forgetting that God only knows the number of our days here on earth. None of us are guaranteed 70 plus years on earth. I want to live the rest of my days out not taking anything for granted, be it washing the dishes to kissing my husband. I am so blessed to have been given so much. I am also blessed that HE has chosen me to carry this little angel to HIM. Stephen will know no pain, sickness, disappointment or heartache. He will only know the Love of Christ all of his days. And I praise my Heavenly Father for this. I will leave you all for know.